Life is hard. Unfair. It always seems the more we try to get ahead the further behind we become. I don't know why good people always are given a more challenging hand than others but it sucks. Period.
I can't say that we have ever been more stressed out as a unit than my wife and I both are tonight.. Our dog died today. She has been with us for four years and the last 40 hours of so of our lives have been one constant hurt after another, praying, pleading to keep her alive. But as life happens we had to say goodbye. I know it doesn't seem like our world should be falling down around us over our dog passing away, but her death is the straw that is breaking the camels back.
I can't say that this week has been filled with any good news, numerous bad things are happening all around us and the devil has came at us in so many forms.
I will positively say Rhett's ear infections seem to be going away, he is much happier! Noah and Levi both have been handfuls for everyone. We can not seem to get Levi to bed at night, Noah has continued his defiance. And Mary + Jake continue to try to be positive as we continue into the unknown.
We are asking for prayers. Prayers for comfort in the loss of our Lexie. Prayers for Rhett's neurologist appointment on Thursday to bring positive results, that our baby isn't going to live a life of complexities. And prayers that we find structure and patience to continue to see the good in life and to accept that all things happening in our lives are to make us a stronger family.
I want to be a positive person, to bring positive news to my family and friends.. But I'm so sad. I'm selfish. I want my wife and kids to have their cake and eat it too. I want my child to not have a life filled with accommodations. I'd love to complain that my dog tracked mud through my dining room because the kids let her in the back door. And I want to wake up knowing something (or someone) isn't always out to get us.
I've often wondered why Jeannie and I can't seem to get ahead. It doesn't matter how hard I work or how many hours I put in, we stay in a constant struggle to make ends meet. Life seems to throw unexpected hurt and an abundance of stress into our heart's that's already stretched tight at the seams. I've cried out to God repeatedly and He has given me the answers I have had to humbly accept. The higher the stress level, the more I pray and lean on God, therefore the closer our relationship becomes. The more in need I am of financial stability, the more I depend on God, therefore the closer our relationship becomes. When I think "MY LOAD IS TO HEAVY, I CAN'T CARRY IT" God has shown me the words of Paul, the "APOSTLE", the man God CHOOSE to bring the gospel to the Gentile's, (us)...
ReplyDelete2Cor. 11:21-31
I say this to our shame: We have been weak. But in whatever anyone dares to boast I am talking foolishly, I also dare: Are they Hebrews? So am I. Are they Israelites? So am I. Are they the seed of Abraham? So am I. Are they servants of Christ? I'm talking like a madman, I'm a better one: with far more labors, many more imprisonments, far worse beatings, near death many times. Five times I received 39 lashes from Jews. Three times I was beaten with rods by the Romans. Once I was stoned by my enemies. Three times I was shipwrecked. I have spent a night and a day in the open sea. On frequent journeys, I faced dangers from rivers, dangers from robbers, dangers from my own people, dangers from the Gentiles, dangers in the city, dangers in the open country, dangers on the sea, and dangers among false brothers; labor and hardship, many sleepless nights, hunger and thirst, often without food, cold, and lacking clothing. Not to mention other things, there is the daily pressure on me: my care for all the churches. Who is weak, and I am not weak? Who is made to stumble, and I do not burn with indignation? If boasting is necessary, I will boast about my weaknesses. The God and Father of the Lord Jesus, who is praised forever, knows I am not lying.(END QUOTE)
WOW, MAYBE I'M GOING THROUGH HARD TIMES, BUT, ALL OF A SUDDEN, I KNOW, IT'S GONNA BE ALRIGHT...
We love yall so sincerely, yall are in our prayers...
Robert and Jeannie...
We love you both!
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